Hello, has anyone else discovered that aside from a few friends that actually UNDERSTAND and accept your condition, do you feel more content to just to stay at home, and involve yourself in activities that you can do at home? You feel that this wonderful condition you have the misfortune to have, that it is better to stay in? To me, it is a feeling of some sort of control of one's life that you can still maintain. I managed to hold down a job for almost 21 years, only to finally relent and get social security. I went w/o driving during the 3 year waiting period, the returned to driving a year ago, only foe a mere three months. I found that after starting to drive I had developed a phobia for driving at night in unfamiliar insufficiently lit places, and others on the road regardless of time of day, scared the hell out of me. In January of this year, I awoke with my vehicle in the ditch. Fortunately, it was only my vehicle involved and no injuries, That told that God was telling me that I had no business driving. I play in a band with some friends and had spent the bight at his place, had insufficient sleep. But that is irrelevant to my post-I guess I learned to entertain myself here with a TV, computer, and stereo. My lead guitarist is very understanding and picks me up for practice, although he lives 15 miles away. That, along with the necessary trips to Dr, store, I don't leave.I have a very curious mind and can get interested in a variety of subjects, i.e, languages, history, computer tech, etc. So I spend a MASSIVE amount of time on net. If I am not on here, I an visiting what few friends do still drop by. I guess in a way, I like to isolate myself because I feel that ( and I do take my meds) if a seizure is to occur, being here at home I am at more at ease. I feel that is has robbed me of everything else. I know I should be angry at my circumstances, some would said get involved in things. Truth be told, this constitutes depending on others. Staying here unless necessary I still maintain some sort of control.Three years ago, I almost climbed the walls, now I am peace with not leaving unless I have to- does anyone else have these situation? I mean I feel like at times I like being invisible.
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