warning: This is kinda long
Its been a long time. Around this time last year I was hyped up about fast 5 and logged my progress about every 10 days, I actually lost weight, it was great, and the best part of it was that my severe acid reflux just went away on its own. I used to carry around a baggie of tums with me everywhere I go, especially to work because it was so bad that I'd choke on the acid (it was so embarrassing in front of customers).
I really liked it, I really don't have a reason for stopping. I just got really depressed last fall, and I fell into bad junkie eating habits. I tried other diets again (recommendations from 2 close friends) mostly consisting of mini meals or alot of snacking, I figured they were both a healthy size so they probably know whats best for getting and staying healthy. The acid reflux came back many times. I kept naturally falling into eating habits of twice a day to counteract the acid reflux.
I'm very pleased that I'm in the same 5 pound range I was this time last year (after losing some weight on fast 5) I wear the same size clothes. I'm just really happy that I didn't gain any weight. I need to lose alot of weight, my goal is to be under 200 pounds. I don't really care about the number on the scale or the size of clothing, I just want to be able to fit everywhere in every seat and not exceed the weight capacity of items designed for adults. I'm not sure how accurate my scale is, its a dial scale and it says 'capacity 330 lbs' <-- its slighty above that mark around where 335 lbs would be.
My goal is to just be comfortable doing things in life. Things like hammocks, beach chairs, office chairs, airplane seats... I just want to be normal and fit. I used to weigh around 170-175 lbs about 7 years ago, the memories are still so fresh in my mind of how it felt to be a normal person and fit everywhere. I had lost 130+ lbs to get to that normal when I was a teen. I was tormented endlessly at a small private school for being so big so it became too embarrassing to ever eat, I even stopped eating in front of my family and the weight came off. Thats kind of similiar to fast 5, im not sure if I did that in a healthy way but the principal of weight loss was similar.
I met an amazing guy in April of this year, we are currently dating and life is great, the only thing out of order in my life is my eating habits. I noticed something recently, I noticed how my moods change with my eating habits, it felt kinda silly to think about it because its just food.. theres so much more to life, food is just here to fuel life, why is it so addicting sometimes? Its just food... it just seems so unimportant to obsess over it... but I know I have in the past. It feels like a fasting lifestyle frees me from the thoughts, the desires, the obsession with food. Fasting gives me so much more time for life thats not related to food or eating, it feels so good to think of my day and think of all the fun things and people... and not the food. I've fasted the past two days and I feel great! It made me think of this forum.
I've noticed with my boyfriend how calm and happy and mellow he is most of the time, he is a really great and loving guy, also I noticed over time that he only eats once a day most days naturally, he just doesn't want to eat any other time, he is lean and a healthy size. I started falling into his eating habits just from spending so much time with him and I felt increasingly more calm and easy going myself. I would try to diet occasionally and noticed after awhile that I would be more stressed easily, more tense, and was thinking so much about food, I felt like my brain was in a fog and I had to start eating tums again.
I starting noticing that the most calm/happy/carefree people I'm around in life don't eat often, and I also noticed (one of my closest friends eats mini meals and snacks all day) seems always to be in a rush and stresses more quickly when things don't go as planned. Has anyone encountered anything like this? I've noticed with my family members too.
When I stopped trying to diet, I was also low on money recently so I've eaten less, and really noticed the change in attitude towards food. I feel really great, I love not needing tums, I love not caring about when I eat next. I just eat when I get around to it, I wait til after 3 pm, it feels like eating is more of a chore now LOL and I love that. I can focus so much more on my boyfriend, my job, my family, and friends. I've recently (in the past few weeks) have started taking my parents dog to the park to walk with me, its such an enjoyable activity and I'm just loving the outdoors so much.
I have a trip planned in 5 months where I will absolutely have to take a plane. I need to lose as many inches as I can. I don't mind still being big, thats expected, but I really want to try as hard as I can, even losing 1 or 2 dress sizes is a huge improvement. I'm going to give this another try and be really serious about it.
Thanks for listening, thanks to all of you that make this forum what it is. I'm really curious, how many pounds or sizes has anyone lost using a fasting lifestyle? I'll try to update regularly.
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