Kevin,
Your last sentence is oh, so true. I'm glad you have shared this with
us. Are you hard to learn to know? It sounds like the wall you have
built around yourself protected you when you were younger. Do you still
need that wall to protect you?
Have you had any counseling? I have had a lot. I don't know where I
would be today if I hadn't. I guess you will have to decide if you
want to stay behind that wall or come out and be touched.
I'm glad you have shared what you did today.
Millie
> Its not about not liking kids, its avoiding them so I can be in better
> health. I realized growing up that I didn't have to be a clone of the rest
> of the family and I realized that every day we live we are faced with
> choices daily. So long ago I decided and chose being an Introvert rather
> than an Extrovert. I have chosen to be Creative, and peaceful over being
> hyper, overly social, and being like most others. There were some
> Psychological issues in the past though. I realized that ever problem on
> planet earth comes from people. People fight, argue, cause war, criticize,
> insult, etc... So one day back in 1988 I decided that I can replace People
> with Plants and Animals. In the year of 1988 I was contemplating suicide
> but because I love my cats soooooo much, I was not going to leave them
> abandoned knowing no one else was going to love them as much as I would.
> So it is because of them that I remain here. In that year I realized I
> could take care of the big Garden I put in my yard, and not only my cats
> but all the neighbors cats. So at that time, I was getting up daily,
> caring for the yard, the cats, and one Dr noticed that I often call my
> cats by the names of Honey, Sweetie, Baby, etc... so he said, "I think
> there is a desire inside of you to love a Person. You call your cats by
> that name because you really want a woman in your life to actually speak
> those names to. The absence of a woman has placed those cats in First
> Place in my heart. The plants also rank high, while I built between my
> heart and all the other people A Great Wall of China, and my heart is
> guarded with Roman armies, Greek armies, Stealth Bombers, Electric Fences,
> Minefields, etc...
>
> One of my friends said, despite having Epilepsy my problems are almost all
> Psychological and may be present because of Growing up with Epilepsy which
> has caused me to be seen as a black sheep. Not treated normal, not given
> normal opportunities, and such. They think my problems started with
> epilepsy but Depression soon followed and has overshadowed the seizures. I
> hardly worry about the seizures because the meds keep it well under
> control. Its tearing down this wall I've built up which is not easy.
>
>
>
>
> --- In epilepsy@yahoogroup
>>
>> Kevin ,
>>
>> It sounds like you live a lonely life. Is there not one in your family
>> that you can tell what you just told us? I would rather that someone
>> know that rather than you don't like kids.
>>
>> Millie
>>
>>
>>
>>
>> > Sex is not actually a big desire of mine also. All the medicines I'm
>> on
>> > have the effect of lowering my libido, all the STDs out there are
>> > frightening, and I know God would not want me being promiscuous so I
>> just
>> > keep the door shut, chained, locked and glued shut. Any woman that
>> wants
>> > sex from me will not get it.
>> > I'm glad someone realizes atmospheres of Kids or Children dont' fare
>> well
>> > with everyone. I have 16 neices and nephews of which come here to my
>> > mothers house very often, and through all the years of their growing
>> up
>> > (the youngest is now 22 and the oldest is 34), I rarely socialize with
>> > them or hang around, them. People feel that I hate children or don't
>> like
>> > them, yet Stress, Tension, and Overanxiety are three triggers to my
>> > seizures. I stay up in my room, where I can be Calm, Cool, Collected,
>> > Nonchalant and at Peace all of the time. I draw, do artistic things,
>> write
>> > and things, but there is no such thing as Peace when kids are around.
>> > Blood pressure rises (which also triggers my seizures) and no one
>> > understands that avoiding kids is not hate,just safety. In order for
>> me to
>> > focus, read and remember what I'm reading, I don't need and shouldn't
>> be
>> > interrupted.
>> me
>> > is not quiet. They are noisy, hyper, unorganized and total 35 of them
>> come
>> > here per week as if every day is a holiday, and I have spent more than
>> 25
>> > Christmasses and Thanksgivings alone in my room. No one seems to
>> > understand the reason for the separation.
>> >
>> >
>> >
>> > --- In epilepsy@yahoogroup
>> >>
>> >> yes i know, it causes me problems when i masturbate at night in bed.
>> i
>> >> feel any type of sexual activity thats what will cause a seizure, i
>> >> chose to get a vasectomy at the young age of 20 years old because i'm
>> a
>> >> very nervous type of person and children get on my nerves really
>> easy. i
>> >> don't want to end up behind bars for child abuse.
>> >> Danny
>> >>
>> >>
>> >>
>> >>
>> >>
>> >>
>> >>
>> >> --- On Wed, 6/24/09, CBI <cbicook@> wrote:
>> >>
>> >>
>> >> From: CBI <cbicook@>
>> >> Subject: Re: [epilepsy] To much or not enough...
>> >> To: epilepsy@yahoogroup
>> >> Date: Wednesday, June 24, 2009, 5:47 PM
>> >>
>> >>
>> >> That's unfortunate. Sex is one of the healthy ways to support your
>> >> nervous system. It is very good for you like other forms of
>> exercise.
>> >> I know it helps me control my sz's.
>> >>
>> >>
>> >> CBI
>> >>
>> >>
>> >> --- On Tue, 6/23/09, Danny Newell <bigboy46@> wrote:
>> >>
>> >> From: Danny Newell <bigboy46@>
>> >> Subject: Re: [epilepsy] To much or not enough...
>> >> To: epilepsy@yahoogroup
>> >> Date: Tuesday, June 23, 2009, 8:31 PM
>> >>
>> >>
>> >>
>> >>
>> >>
>> >>
>> >>
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>> >>
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>> >>
>> >> my problem is that any type of sexual activity i seem to have
>> it
>> >> usually causes a seizure, i don't know if anyone in this group that
>> has
>> >> this type of problem like i do.
>> >>
>> >>
>> >>
>> >>
>> >>
>> >>
>> >>
>> >> --- On Tue, 6/23/09, uniquepnk tds.net <Uniquepnk@tds. net> wrote:
>> >>
>> >>
>> >>
>> >> From: uniquepnk tds.net <Uniquepnk@tds. net>
>> >>
>> >> Subject: Re: [epilepsy] To much or not enough...
>> >>
>> >> To: epilepsy@yahoogroup s.com
>> >>
>> >> Date: Tuesday, June 23, 2009, 3:56 PM
>> >>
>> >>
>> >>
>> >> Marie,
>> >>
>> >>
>> >>
>> >> I do better with seizures when everything is routine. If I don't get
>> >> enough
>> >>
>> >> sleep, eat right, or do anything to get me overanxious about things,
>> >> that is
>> >>
>> >> when I am more likely to have seizures.It doesn't happen all the
>> time,
>> >> but I
>> >>
>> >> can tell the difference when things are not a regular routine. I wish
>> >> you
>> >>
>> >> well with your sociology. Take care.
>> >>
>> >>
>> >>
>> >> Tammy
>> >>
>> >>
>> >>
>> >> On Mon, Jun 22, 2009 at 10:27 PM, moblondielpn <moblondielpn@
>> >> yahoo.com>wrote:
>> >>
>> >>
>> >>
>> >> >
>> >>
>> >> >
>> >>
>> >> > Seems with my I have seizures when I
>> >>
>> >> > watch to much tv* on computer to long* get to stressed out* when I
>> >> don't
>> >>
>> >> > eat* when I don't drink enough* when I don't sleep enough.
>> >>
>> >> > I haven't gone into convulsions in a long time, about a year. But I
>> >> can
>> >>
>> >> > tell when I am having some seizure activity By the way I feel The
>> best
>> >> way
>> >>
>> >> > to explain it "My brain is doing flip flops"
>> >>
>> >> > I try to control my life style so seizures won't control me.
>> >>
>> >> > I am still working on sociology.
>> >>
>> >> > Marie
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