Contemplate your attatchment to food. do not judge, do not intent to change it. Only observe, like if you where observing ants. The attatchment to food will eventually drop and so the extra weight. I learned this after more than 40 years of fighting it.
You are not sleeping well, I almost died of insomnia. What is it that my brain is thinking. Nothing really important, the same repetetive, mostly negative thoughts. And I can go on all night thinking and thinking and thinking (getting up and eating something and make things worst). It is very painful and next day I hardly can make it. My thoughts keep me awake at night. Past thoughts, what happended and it shouldn't,or it should and it didn't, or even a movie I saw, second hand worry. Future thoughts, the dreadful/marvelous things that can happen but never did or will.
Past-Future, Past-future, Past-future I stop and I breath deeply and try to catch my thoughts, they hide but I catch them and observe them with no judgment. And I fall asleep.
Yes, we can do this, dogs cannot, It looks like the human beings are the only ones that can observe themselves as if looking at someone else.
Contemplate your self. Contemplate your self, Contemplate your self, Contemplate your self, Contemplate your self, And contemplate your self. It may or may not drop you attachment and help you sleep, but most importantly you will know yourself.
From: innamur <no_reply@yahoogroup
To: fast5@yahoogroups.
Sent: Tue, February 23, 2010 1:50:33 AM
Subject: [fast5] need advise
Hello, Group. Thank you so so much for the all responses I've got. Sorry, I didn't get back to you quicker.
I do realize that I need to have a "good fuel" for my student life right now and that's what I'm trying to get. It's still very-very hard to explain to my classmates that I am ok and that it's my way of eating. The thing is that we all eat together because we all have lunch at the same time (between classes), so I am buying a salad and everyone sees that I will eat, but some time latter in the day. Is it hard for me? Yes, very hard. But I do need to loose some weight. My classmates already started to gain weight because most of us eat while staying late during the nights. SO, I am still with you, guys, trying to survive. However, resently I started to drink Redbull at night and it keeps me awake. I know it's colories, but I am buying sugar free and it only has 10 kl. I still didn't weight myself because still not ready to see my weight, but I know it's going DOWN. I think I am 130 now and 'd like to be 122-125. (and I'm 5'6)
Thanks everyone, you are such a supporting group and that's what makes us succeed!!!
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