There are two words in your piece that are breaking my uncontrolled seizure head and heart. "Loved One". I have been married 10 years and over that time had gone through a terrible phase of 8-12 attacks a day and a coma for three days, hospital overnights numerous times over 2 years. I could not do my fair share as a husband and father and so anger and frustration continued to rise in my wife. Now, if there is ever an argument about anything, my stress on her in the past, my memory issues on all these meds, wiping my puke, cleaning up my urine... and my inability to fully care for out two year and 8 year old children alone. She kicked me out, I visit almost every day to clean, walk the dog, and watch the children only inside the house and when I can feel that my brain is not at risk for enough hours for her to return. If she gets mad about something then I can't visit unless she calls asking for help. My dream of becoming a family under one roof is lost and she has wanted a divorce for almost 3 years now. I need to start a new life with a partner in love but the courage and knowledge of how to find her is not good, and I can't stop thinking if it is better for my son and daughter to keep waiting. I am 46, physically active and the attacks are only 2 or 3 a month now. I am returning to the work field and am producing my second Documentary, this one being on my Epilepsy Group here in Boulder CO. I wish I could take my 8yr old son biking and hiking now that we live near mountains but the wife/mother is strong fisted, even if I find a group. Looking for Love. SamJr.
--- In epilepsy@yahoogroups.com, Georgia Lundie <gklundie@...> wrote:
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> Wow..i do feel for you..I am certainly not in your spot...my partner has the
> grand mal seizures..but we have pretty much gotten them under control with
> keppra and topamax..she still has her license..her dr hasn't taken it since
> she always knows they are coming..we tried last year to get her on
> disability..but was denied..lawyer said would take at least another year or
> more..and would need to surrender her license..she isn't willing to give it
> up..so with meds she has now gone four months without one..the longest
> ever..but today she went to work..and had to go into the bathroom, and had a
> seizure..luckily I had not left to go to work yet..so I drove to go get her
> and brought her home..it's hard..sitting there during the times your loved
> one is going thru that..helping them recover...i could not imagine being in
> your spot..but know that you aren't alone on here..
> Georgia
> On Jun 27, 2011 5:34 PM, "Ken Wallace" <ken@...> wrote:
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