Corinna,
Welcome to the group. It sounds like you have been through a lot in your
past. Your mom is gone now, so try to change your future to something that
makes you laugh and keep a smile on your face. If you are dealing with
seizures, it is no wonder. I have complex partial seizures from a head
injury on the left side. I don't dream a lot, I guess because the medicine
I take, I sleep soundly at night for the most part.Years ago when I had bad
dreams at night, I would usually have seizures.Stress seems to cause my
seizures right now.I guess I worry too much a lot more than I should. I hope
this group helps the way you feel. Take care of yourself and write anytime.
Tammy
On Sat, Jun 20, 2009 at 12:35 PM, cmichal427 <cmichal427@yahoo.
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> I came to be diagnosed with epilepsy through the "back door"--for years
> psychiatrists thought I was bipolar and fed me meds like Lithium< Thorazine,
> Risperdal--you name it I had it and NOTHING WORKED. One psychiatrist thougt
> I might just have PTSD because I had a very abusive childhood--my mother
> BEAT me when I didnt lose weight fast enough to suit her even tho I was in
> an acceptable weight range medically, she quizzed me every night on my
> homework and sloshed the textbook around my ears if I answered wromg, and
> she even abused me sexually. My father was either not present when the abuse
> took place or he pretended not to motice,
> It takes very little to trigger memories of the abuse, but whenever the
> memory surfaces, my surroundings diappear and its as if I had quantum leapt
> into the past and sometimes I am about to reply to my mother and then I
> "wake up" and feel silly about this because of course she isnt there, IS
> THIS A SEIZURE?Or PTSD?
> In 2008 a Hiltler-like psychiatrist put me on Seroquel which made me so
> shaky on my geet that I could barely walk. I had to go from arm to arm of
> passers-by to negotiate smooth tile floors. When I said no more and begged
> him to chamge the meds he threw me out as a patient, finally I got to a good
> woman in a private practice who obn the first visit suspected that my
> problems did not just come from bad experiences, She asked me to do some
> manual dexterity tests which I failed. When she finally got my records there
> was a record of a CT scan of my brain from 1995 but I didnt even know it
> existed because it had been done whike I was unconscious from a suicide
> attempt (pills) after another torture from Ma., and none of my previous
> doctors had told me about it, It showed a split of fibers in the right
> temporal lobe and she said this governs emotion and co-ordination(
> some motor co-ordination problems--cant ride bike, drive, roller skate or go
> downstairs w/out railing for balance)> She then asked me if I ever had had
> grand mal I said no and that was true but since I was 13 there were periodic
> shaking spells where I was conscious of what was around me but unable to
> speak or force myself to move or change position, these lasted 2-3 minutes
> and were often noise generated or from repeated visual images like a stream
> of cars on a highway,Usually nobody around me noticed or even if they told
> me they had seen me appearing odd I just tossed it off saying I had had a
> scary thought. I had never told any of the previous doctors because I
> thought that would lead to a declaration of incompetency since it showed
> that there was something medically wrong in me rather than "blaming all my
> troubles on experience, and my mother would abuse and control me even more
> after I would be declared incompetent but now she is dead so I had nothing
> to lose by telling my present doctor. She said everything she sawand what I
> told her fit the SPs ep profile but I didnt have the $$$ for real tests. She
> said tshe couldnt really tell if the vivid memory flashes were PTSD or a
> symptom of TLE but she urged me to wear a medical bracelet identifying me as
> havingTLE. It is also noteworthy that DEpakote and Gabapentin woand these
> are meds for Epilepsy rather than psych disorders.
> WHat DO YOU think about the memory vivid flahes, is there any one here who
> is a TLE and has the same thing? I also have alot of nightmares is this also
> a TLE symptom? Also is it true tyhat TLE from the right temp lobe can mimic
> bipolar while left lobe TLe can be mistaken for schizophrenia?
> I know this is a very long post, but I am finally emerging from being just
> a lurker on this list and trying to find real "Brotherhood" and "sisterhood"
> with others who share my experience medically. Corinna in Florida
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